Thank you so much Fuzzy...... amazing how you knew what I was thinking.

You've been a great help, I'm very grateful. If not for you-- being at a very low time for me-- I wouldn't have had any replies. -- that would have put even more negative "talk" in my head.
I appreciate your kindness.

I'm holding on the best I can..... waiting for the time when I need to react in a self-caring manner.
I sure hurt for my neighbor too Offered the family help last night-- they didn't need anything...... would like to DO something..... just don't know what-- not very good at this stuff.....

mandy