I really thought my mom would die last night in the hospital. I spent twelve hours there all night till my sister came to relieve me. Mom would freak out if she knew the condition she's in right now., always insisting on washing her face and putting on her lipstick! I sat up all night holding her hand, requesting more and more pain medication, and the nurse was very responsive and compassionate. This is not Hospice, but the little hospital near my home. Now I can't go to sleep! I need to, but I'm just wanting to talk.
It's really hard to see a loved one in this shape....gasping for air. As I sat an held her hand, at one point, as she convulsed in pain, I was trying to comfort her, talking in soft tones, I said, "I love you, Mom," and she smiled! I just wish she could go to sleep and have it over with!
Patty