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how do u know that your T isnt discouraged at your progress? I mean.. they wouldnt tell you huh? I worry about that allot

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I'm sorry your are worrying so. that's just what I did...... and then...... T. said that I'm one of those "lose-lose situations"...... ouch I tried so hard not to run but after hearing that-- my old "loser" tapes took over in deafening volume!

I think maybe through all this, I've learned that if I do ever get a new therapist, I'm going to try to just take care of me and not the therapist's interests too. Sometimes I felt I was walking on ice that could break any minute.... I had to say the "right" things to keep the ice together(to appease my T.) and then that sometimes left me on an island of ice surrounded by water with nowhere to go.

Therapy can be so difficult for some. Not sure how it is for you but, I tend to have difficulties with bonding and trust.... so it can make for a rough time. Want so bad to be accepted and helped but worry I'll be too much of a burden.

Just do the best that you can do and know in your heart that you are trying.

mandy