Hey thanks. This all has me screwed up in the head. I bet it will for awhile until this gets to be the new normal. I dont remember how long it took me last time until new normal felt normal. It'll happen. Changes come.

What I mean about their teenage problems is how NikNak and them have been remembering things they thought they were done remembering or got over. But they got to looking at it all different. Then they got to remembering things they forgot about. Then theres all the stuff about dreams of that one school and other things that arent serious things but its like they been half pulled back in time to teen years. Its been eatin at more ten NiKKi but she's my sis. I feel like an ahole for puttin this on her. First day big brother? Epic failure. Shes been a good big sis.

She's not mad at me. Im mad at me for that. I yelled at V today to. She didnt mean me harm and she was tryin to help but she was in my head talkin and that pissed me right off. Get out my head. I was yellin at her. I know shes not mad at me either. She gets it she dont thoroughly enjoy havin us up in her head all the time either when shes not doin fine. Tell you what, I got a new appreciation for Gwen. I used to tease her when shed get stressed about us all makin noise inside. I been humbled, Gwen. Sorry for before.

Did I clear it up r make it worse? Lol. I think it has to be me makin everybody else have this memory and go back in time things happen because of me age jumpin how I did. I feel about the same age as I would have been if I was around for those years. Those years they have been gettin stuck in or stuck on. I cant ignore how coincidental that seems to be.