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Old Nov 21, 2007, 11:26 AM
Anonymous81711
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It was never the alchohol I wanted, it was being the life of the party that appealed to me. Not being shy, being vivacious, entertaining people ect.

It was also never the drugs that I wanted, it was the feeling of happiness and freedom from my mental hangups and negativity that I loved.

The drugs and alchohol were just a path to get there. The wrong path. I guess I need to figure out how to cultivate those things within myself without going for the route that is so damaging.

Going on five and a half months now that I have been clean from all but those damn cigarettes.

One step at a time though.