When you went to the hospital last time, it resulted in you being "fine for a couple weeks." So that really didn't do you much good.

Find out if there is a "partial hospitalization program" connected with that hospital you were in. A program like that might actually do you more good.

I've heard of AA groups called "double trouble" for persons with both mental health issues and a drinking problem. You might try taking in one of those meetings.

Where are you getting the money from to buy the alcohol?

Is living with your mother just not working out? I realize you may not have any alternative that seems reasonable, but maybe your home situation is feeding into the problem. Sometimes getting hospitalized seems like a way of escaping a living situation that is not going well. But, as you know, they only keep you so long.

I'm sorry you feel so down. In that state of mind, it is hard to do what you need to do.