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Mar 01, 2017, 05:57 AM

the things I most regret are:

1. having absolutely no idea what I wanted to study, or where I wanted my life to go. left me a bit of an outsider not knowing.

2. losing out on so much education because of hospital visits. by the time I'd get out, the old place wouldn't take me and I had to find somewhere new

3

Possible trigger:

starving myself.

I don't know what possessed me to do it, but I did.

my body was shutting down really fast and I had to spend a really long time in hospital while they tried to figure out something they could do

the following march, I can remember sitting at home with those things in my arm feeding me (it wasn't good), or particularly pleasant.

4. not trying to make friends or even socialise.

it was a very lonely time indeed
5. not trying to make living conditions better for me.

Possible trigger:

I think the main thing here is (and I still say it to this day), I was scared of all the abuse.

my family were the worst family ever when it came to treating a child. they should have never had any.

telling the nurses for example that you wish your child died in hospital, that's really not on

nor is holding you up against a wall at home smacking you over the head with a saucepan, or pushing you down a flight of stairs... i'm 30 now, and I often wondered, if i'd actually moved out, if i'd actually bothered to find a charity or someone to help me, would things be diffrent.

I don't have anyone now. friends, family, relatives, all because of my stupid actions as a teen.

but can I blame myself. I don't know. I was, after all, put in to a scary situation with not much hope of getting out.

I think about this every day

it haunts me