im fine, im just tired.. sleep deprived... nightmares keep me from sleeping well enough to get any rest...

i just wanted to apologize for such a nasty message... i just have to think about what T said a lot... i probably will try to go to one of the rehabs but im scared...

she was talking like i could go and then just stay gone, not come back home to this mess... i guess thats why im so upset because i dont really have the problems... if everyone around me could just chill out then i would be doing a lot better...

i did talk to her about emailing her too, got her email address... now i just have to figure out what to do with it,

thanks for letting me vent, i dont get to vent ever...