Thinking of you shybutterfly81 at this sad sad time.

I lost my dad to the `BIG C` back in 1994. (Heart breaking experience and a depressing time) Then lost my youngest brother Dave (46) to the same disease in 2013. This exasperated my depression and anxiety attacks' again, to a state of self harm and suicide!
I was in a dark black hole and no-where to go!

Take care...............