Hi WannabeMe84.

You are not and will never be alone with your difficulties!

I myself was brought up by my dad (who also was strict and as you put it a Tyrant)
I was humiliated, un-loved, chastised with the slipper or belt, sent to bed at with no tea and forced to show no weakness! `But` he was my dad, and I thought it was the norm in those days`! (Now I know different) Predominately my dad was one of my main issues` throughout my life! Up until the 7th December last year, after seeing a psychologist.
Now that issue with a sack full of attachments` have now been put to bed. I am now finally at peace with my dad (Wonderful feeling) it is the other issues` I have to try and deal with! SHAME is only `BUT` ONE OF THEM!

Take care.................