Hi so im a kid and i never lived no job life cuz when we had host people who was doin that i was inside so that dont even seem real to me even when im knowin its real cuz some of us did that they worked lots of hours and all. maybe im should be respondin cuz thats nothin i know lots about. But i get freezin up n not knowin what to do or how to do nothin when i get to feelin strong feelins to and then i go n try to do things that used to help me back when i was a real for real kid n they dont help no more so i gotta rework how i work now. Thats hard to do. Maybe you can look at diff things now like work to help keep you feelin better? Things you gotta be doin to keep bein ok and bein responsible? Maybe theres things around your house that seem real real hard but if you can think ok this is work mode time then maybe that would help? Oh i dont know if that makes sense but i hope you find a way to get it figured out and find whats gonna work for you now. Lots of times i try to not fight what i feel when it comes up but i know sometimes people needin a break from that business. I sure do sometimes.

NiKKi