Do you remember what it was like to be "normal" -- i.e., before your bipolar started up?

I think my BP started around age 12, or at least that's when my first sui attempt was. Before that, I remember having LOTS of friends. We got along well, we understood each other, we hung out a lot...I also actively engaged in sports... played softball, basketball, soccer

At age 12, I became severely depressed. My behavior and mood were all out of whack. I was doing (presumably) crazy things, and I ended up losing all my friends. And at the time, I had NO idea what I did wrong or what was wrong with me. When I lost my friends, I was already so depressed that I couldn't even give a s***

What about you?