I remember being manic in 4th grade. I was put in a special group with kids with behavioral issues. We met over lunch. I am pretty old and I don't think they knew how to handle kids with mental illness back then. Those with severe impairment were locked up in institutions. I was violent in 5th and 6th grade - nothing horrible but I did punch out a couple of boys who teased me relentlessly. A girl beating up a boy was not good form so I spent some time in the principal's office.

I think I was depressed after that, and being in junior high did not help! I became manic again in college but stabilized in my early 20s through my early 30s. Those were great years. I had friends and goals and no problems. Then everything fell apart. I was diagnosed bpII in my mid 30s but I know now that I have been bp all my life.

I remember fondly that window where I felt normal and appreciate the few months I get here and there where I am asymptomatic. I am there now and it feels great. Only difference is, I know that it likely won't last so I enjoy it while I can.