ive gotten past the point of wishing him harm. its been over 2 years and im finally getting to the point where i have compassion for him. i have seen 2 other women since me get the same treatment and they didnt fight back like i did. wishing him harm just puts me as low as he is and im above that now.

my nightmares have slowly progressed. it used to be that i would have nightmares where he would almost kill me. then he would try to kill me but i would run and now when i have those nightmares i actually fight back and almost kill him. so i think in my mind im working through it. since the nightmare where i almost killed him i havent had any since. and it doesnt make me enraged when i think about him. he is the way he is he is cause of his home situation and i wish that could have been better for him. oh well. ill get over it.

thanks for your concern.