I'm not allowed to take an AP

This was prescribed.. almost insisted upon by a doctor..but not quite
Therapy would be more helpful.. I'm having to explore things completely outside of the "public health system" over here..
Anyway I can't take the AP..
(Body made sure of this)
Noticed another thread.. I'm still here, sometimes not sure why
Tonight is going to be hard.. I've almost run out of benzos to sleep
Another month or more before the possibility of a refill

Will I even be here in a month? Why do "they" .. doctors irl.. assume I'll be here in .. years time?

Too many assumptions.. I could delete this but I don't think I need to delete everything I write... why do doctors (irl) make so many assumptions.. they have the "power" - we need to take it back...

(Thanks for the PM's - sometimes my bear doesn't reply)