i understand this too. it is really amazing to think of the things we have survived and that we even did to begin with. sometimes, i have times where things are so okay/good that i actually can forget for a bit that anything did happen...but then when i do..it is difficult.

but that is the way dissociation works to begin with...to separate us from the bad/difficult things so we can function and be okay and have 'normal' times, etc. it's also survival mode at times, though time can separate us from stuff too even without the dissociation aspect.

it also just shows us how strong we really are even if we have/had times were aren't/weren't.