I would be lying if I said I really understand what your trying to express ... is it the song or are you the song ... either way ... I am truly sorry your hurting ... if my magic wand could fix it ... I would wave it all day from the roof top ... songs have such a way of expressing our feelings that sometimes can not be spoken any other way ... I know my music has been a godsend for me ... and sometimes I don't even know what is being said ... I pray you find peace ...