My depression at the moment is mild to moderate and I don't feel awful or anything. But one continual theme in my head is that life has no meaning. I don't feel that every day but I do a lot of days. It's like I just don't see the point. When I was younger and in school I was goal oriented. I wanted to graduate, have a career, get married, have kids. Well I have that career. I am married. And I have a 13 month old daughter. I am in the field I want to be in but my job just isn't all the that satisfying and involves a lot of mundane work and a lot of cleaning because they won't hire someone to help clean and because there is a lot of construction going on which makes things chaotic. (I work in a lab as a scientist). But I have a good position and I'm in my field and have the chance to do very amazing things. But for some reason it doesn't feel satisfying like it "should". Also, I love my daughter and husband. And I know I need to be here for them. But it just doesn't feel right. When I'm at home I sometimes get depressed because I have so many chores to do and because I don't really have hobbies. At work I always look forward to going home like most people do but I don't often enjoy myself that much while I'm there. I am trying to take my mind off how I am feeling and just live, so maybe that will help.

But how do you guys find meaning? I don't really want to advance much further in my career because I don't want more responsibility. I am thinking of having more kids but I don't know.