I felt empty for the longest time. It took me years to come to terms with it. The work you do in therapy helps especially when you talk about things that are bothering you, your shame and guilt and your secrets. The other trick is being okay with the way you are and accepting yourself. You actually are in a better spot already than I was. I didn't have many friends or people who touched me. I would get affection from my therapists. I had family and a couple of friends but not close relations with them. It does get better though. I am ok with who I am now. It may not be what other people have but it is okay. I don't need affection all the time anymore. I rarely see a therapist also only as needed. It does get better. It just
takes time and effort.