yesterday after session I felt tired and emotionally drained. Today I feel melancholy and somewhat depressed. I see my t next week maybe I should wait another week. My new t is a social worker with a lot of experience. She is around my age. She doesn't know much about DID but she has worked with ptsd. Which I also have. Right now I think it's a good fit. She talked about making me feel safe while in session. It's a good start. Of course I don't completely safe. I told her a lot last session which surprised me. I need her to know I have a system but that i am not crazy. amanda mentioned something about how her alters deiced to integrate. It's an interesting perspective. It's logical. As odd as this may sound to some I find most of my system based in logic. My parts were created to handle things that might have destroyed the whole. They were created with a logical response to avoiding physical and or emotional death. What amanda said is logical. maybe logic is the path to helping our parts release their pain and memories and integrate. maybe.