Hi cryingontheinside.

I know where you are my friend, and its` not a nice place! `BUT` there is help and support out there for you. `I know that now` Cause just over 5 months` ago I was in a dark dark and lonely place, standing on a chair with a rope around my neck! my mind wandered and I seen my only brother standing next to a coffin with me inside, he was crying!! My thought then was `How can I hurt someone that I dearly love`!! `The answer was `I COULD`NT` I knew then that I wanted and needed help for my own existence.
It took until the 7th of December (Psychologist meeting) for the penny to drop! `I am not on my own here`!! Today I am happy as some of my issues` have been put too bed. The other issues`, (In due course) maybe put in order and eventually put too bed!! My self worth and esteem are good at the moment. I start a new job next week, which will give me independence and a basis to fight and be happy!!
`YOU` are a person that deserves` happiness and contentment! `YOU` are the only person that will get you there! Professionals` can only give you the tools` (Guidance and support) `YOU` have to utilize them in a way that will fit your `MIND PUZZLE` in order to make peace with your inner being! `YOU` are a person in your own right, that needs` to find yourself and to move on in a positive and healthy way! `YOU` can do it, `YOU` just need to believe in yourself!!

Take care......................