*hugs* The drs are not outhe to get you. It sounds like your bipolar mind is playing tricks on you. Please get help. Trust the drs.
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Bipolar/BPD
Abilify 5mg
Prozac 40mg
Fish oil and vitamin D
"Of course it is happening inside your head Harry, but why on Earth should that mean that it is not real?"
-Albus Dumbledore