I can relate to this. I spent my childhood and young adulthood being clean to a fault. That's how my childhood home was and how I was expected to be to get approval from my parents. As I've gotten older I have gone the opposite. I had to learn to let it go and let things be messy, and I am glad I did. It is so much less stress and has separated me mentally from the person I had to be as a child. When I am in a place that is so clean that it reminds me of my childhood, it makes me uncomfortable. I am happier in a messier state of things.