On Monday, I am starting a 3 months retraining program that is funded by the government here. This is all good, and I've done everything I can to give myself the best chance for success. I will be seeing a counsellor once a week, and have even changed my gym time this week to get used to the new schedule.

But this small thing is eating me up. I go to a support group every Friday, and I was looking forward to tomorrow's group. But now I am not sure I can go, since it is in the afternoons, and I'll probably have to head to a government office to finish off some forms so I can attend the program, because they go by their schedule.

I was really geared up to say my temporary farewells until I can make it again. Since this is a full time program, I'm not sure I can make it to the support group until the end of May.

Everyone who's helped me has been great, and I've really felt like everyone is on my side, I even got the small accommodations I requested, but I still feel invisible because of this.

Not much to do other than hang in there.

I know it's a small thing, and it's out of my control, but it still feels bad.