{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{Angela}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}} Honey, Sweetheart, I very seriously doubt that you did anything to merit those feelings! You suppose it's just past programing? Maybe it's a combination of anxiety and depression? You know how they can lie to us!

Tell yourself if you can: "I am a good person. I am loved. I am safe in that knowledge. I am going to be okay." Do the deep breathing that someone suggested. Picture yourself in the middle of all of us and we're sending possitive vibes and love your way.

You are wonderful, intelligent, beautiful, loving, caring, understanding and may other things. YOU ARE OK!