I often go to the session calm or a little nervous, then during the session, i find a way to keep myself calm and sometimes its relaxing and i really enjoy it. This is good, but as i am out of the door i feel like i came out of it worse than the way i entered and i have no idea why.
Maybe i was too comfy, happy to share with someone who does really understand me? Or what?
And i dont mean to say i come out if it more nervous, sad, or mad. I come out of it plainly suicidal and the feeling doesnt pass until i see her again and rarely before.
Does it happen to you too? I dont know what to do. My T already knows it but it still happens. What do you think? Help please!