I'm lucky to have a wife that puts up with me. I think she appreciates SOME of the bipolar attributes. I know that she loves when I get obsessed with crazy projects with the kids. I know that my fixation on the disorder stresses her out.. so I don't speak about it much. But.. I dump it on my few friends too much and drive them away when I'm depressed. Luckily that seems cyclical and they accept me back. But overall.. I'm pretty lonely. The friends I can relate with don't live close to me.. and locally I'm too eccentric and intense to have real friends. I hate that.. I can feel people pulling away from me whenever I meet acquaintances in the community. I'm just too intense and too enthusiastic about things. I miss college where it seemed like my group was all either bipolar or ADHD. We were all crazy and it was awesome.