I know the feelings your going through and it will pass trust me! I was single for seven years after I was messing around with pills and went off to rehab and got on lithium the first time before my BP II diagnosis. I honestly truly believe there is someone out there for everyone. See with my BP I always felt I had "the one" but that wasn't my actually healthy self. But now that I've been down that road so many times I need to make a pit stop take some time for me get these mess working my moods under control then step back into it. You will find someone! If I could only show you my journal entries of almost seven years it was so depressive never finding someone etc then I thought I did I throw this obsession on it and then crash and burn. I know exactly what your going through and there is someone out there for you trust me!