Sometimes. Like this week. The session itself wasn't too bad and only one uncomfortable topic discussed; however, it hasn't even been 48 hours and I've already emailed her once, I cried off and on yesterday and I wish I could see her again. I keep rereading the emails from yesterday and sitting here refreshing the screen.

I am not suicidal like I would have been a year ago. Now I say I am struggling (struggling to hold it together) where as a year ago I called these days rough days (because there was no ability to hold it together). Progress. Yes, I feel your pain and understand it well.

Try to find something kind to do for yourself. (maybe I'll take that advice and try to do something for myself)