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Originally Posted by Naynay99
I feel like my only mistake was in picking the wrong person. So I wasted the last 8 years on and off trying to make something work with somebody I loved who didn't have the capacity to beat his own demons. I was the one holding the slack, extra rope wrapped around my ****ing throat. I was the strong one. I am not looking for someone to save me,
I don't expect a relationship to fix the depression, I just want to not be so alone.
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Oh sweetie...
Feel you. THAT is a VERY lonely feeling. The good news is you came out if it with the (powerful) knowledge of what the signs are.
I have a BF (who is sick all the time, so hear you on having to be "the strong one" -- it gets old), but no friends. It's good to remember when those feelings hit that things are not always as they appear with others. Loneliness isn't nearly so much about people as connection. One can be lonely in a crowd. Or even with an SO (and you know that from your above experience I'm sure!)
Do you get out there at all? I don't even really mean seeking an SO, just out there amongst people. I'll just throw the thought out there and leave it since you didn't ask/were just venting.
There are a lot of people here who really understand. You are not alone.
