The one sister I am close with and I talked it out yesterday, and we are cool. I respect her honesty as to her lack of protecting me, because it's not really within her, because she doesn't want to get attacked, too.

The other sister never called, nor did I call her. When my h called her during the whole confrontation several days ago, she didn't pick up. But when he called my aunt right after, my sister cut into the line calling my aunt. So, she wouldn't talk to h, but called aunt immediately, and never called me. Oh well...

And my aunt never called again. She's back home now far away. I have no relationship with her, anyway.

I have been reflecting on the whole thing all day, trying to put myself in the minds of the others. Trying to think about what I did that they see me as not being worthy of defending, what I must have done that they think I am at fault.

I'm really clueless and dumbfounded.

Anyone who talks to me on here, would probably agree that I have a really good comprehension and reaction to situations in general.

I am just at a loss here.

And another day goes by...

Not looking forward to T tonight. Not looking forward to another weekend with h. Really down. So tired.