Genevieve is correct = you have the right to withdraw your consent at any time. For your T to get medical records from another medical provider, he would have had to get a written consent from you, again, which you can absolutely withdraw/rescind.

I would worry about the psychological impact of reading the records, which, as Sky so accurately pointed out, are just someone else's opinion.

In my experience, you are a very sensitive person, and take what others say very much to heart, (and read into what others say negative things about yourself). I am this way, too, as are a lot of other people, so I in no way mean this as a criticizm.

I'm agreeing with you re: your concern that reading those records may do more harm than good.

Sending you positive energy, and please remember that 'God doesn't make junk' and that you are NOT, NOT, NOT rotten or any of those other negative labels/words; you are Divine.

Warmest regards, Peanut