I'm on the same stage. Yes, life is like hell. Nothing helps. I just keep changing meds without no relief. All I get is uncomfortable side effect. I do wish if I did not wake up in the morning. But I continues therapy and meds. If we don't do anything, things will never get better. It may help. it may not, but I get a little bit relief by seeing therapist knowing someone is fighting against this with me and I'm not alone.