hi,

i'm very sure about my orientation: aromantic and homosexual.
but i am still battling some issues and hope you can help me figure these things out.
i am very sexually attracted to guys, i fantasise about having sex with a guy, i watch gay porn. but at the same time i never try to get to know anyone or to have sex.
i'm not interested in dating or a relationship but i assume it would be easy to find someone to just have casual sex with.
but for me that's a line that i'm scared of crossing.
i don't know why.
it would be no problem for me to hook up with someone online or in a club and just have sex with them. i often fantasise about doing it.
in the end i never go that far and i don't know if it's because i'm shy or insecure or if i have underlying issues with my sexuality without realising.
or whatever other reason there might be.
it happens a lot that i imagine having sex with a guy and masturbate and it feels good.
but then afterwards i feel disgusted.
i don't know why.

can you help me figure this out?