but i think i need to... in the sense of triggers, its not safe where i am at... so i think maybe i need to do it, even if it is triggering... but i make myself do stff like that all the time, where i really dont want to do it... so im trying to be nice to myself...
but maybe the nicest thing i can do for myself would be something like one of those programs...
i dont know... T said its the contemplation phase...