Decided on a catchy personal motto: "F_ck the sunshine.", but can't decide if it's positive or negative. "F_ck the moment", "Get f_cked up in the moment", and "Just f_ck it" were all close contenders.

The pain that I feel every morning when I wake makes no sense. I don't want to talk to any of my friends or relatives. I don't want to go anywhere or do anything.

I should be forcing myself to write something every day, but I haven't been writing D_ck. Hell, I don't even know D_ck anymore. I want to write a story about someone who delivers comestibles, contraband and other conveniences to the eight-figure condos in Waikiki, but I need to know more about exactly how this is done. There's only one way to find out.

Next mood swing in 20 minutes.