I was SOO frustrated by the time I had to get up today...
ALL night I tossed and turned, and the stupid VOICES were driving me nuts. It makes me so angry, I wish I could shut them up, but it won't stop. I wish I could just jump out of bed and run screaming out of my apartment, leave all the noise behind, and sleep somewhere else, but I can't get away from it because it's in my HEAD! I'm lying there, there's a man singing and talking, but I can't understand most of what he says, it's just NONSENSE! There's music and whispering. It's like listening to three radio stations at once and they're ALL annoying. I kept looking at my clock every twenty minutes, and just couldn't get comfortable. Why, when my body is so tired, can't my mind just SHUT UP AND GO TO SLEEP?!?
That was the worst restless night I've had in a while, and I've been exausted for a few days now. I haven't been depressed, just really really tired. I'm just trying to keep my self up long enough to go to bed at the regular time so I don't wake up horrendously early.
Does this happen to anyone else here? I'm tired of the old man and his jibberish. How do I get him to shut up? It wasn't scary this time, just really annoyiong. The last time I had hallucinations that really scared me (I wrote about that in my first post) it was a feeling that accompanies it mostly, and sounds that I thought at first were coming from under my bed. There was a woman then that said "You don't like that, do you? Well, take the sound of SEVENTY SWANS WINGS!" and then there was this constant repetitive fluttering noise. On top of the whispering and scuttling sounds, and the horrible feeling that someone was there. I even tried to read to block it out, but I couldn't even concentrate on the words on the page, the sounds in my head overpowered me. I tried walking around the apartment. I yelled at it and told it to leave me alone, get out of my apartment. Obviously that didn't help. The last thing I did was call my friend and talk to him for an hour because I was afraid to be alone. How do I get it to stop?