I feel the same way..I've let go of taking care of my appearance (there was a time very very long ago that i could never take my earings out because i felt 'naked' and today i rarely wear them).

My self esteem issue goes a bit deeper. I feel worthless as a human. I grew up in the US from the age of 9 yet i am undocumented, therefore i am unable to attend college and have a proper job like any other human being. I am filled with self loathing and feeling sub human in a household where i am the odd one out. I feel like i have no hopes for a future and for the normal things people do like paying taxes , buying a home...normal stuff. It's like trying to reach for the stars and my eyes are watering up. I'm triggering myself lol..

I'm sorry if my reply got out of hand but today i joined and i have so much to share..so much help i need to end my total loneliness.

Alot of us are on the same boat for vastly different reasons and experiences. I hope you find some help or some way to cope with your feelings ❤❤❤❤ try not to forget that we are all pink in the inside and breathe the same air, you have the same right to be here as all the people around you do. Lots of hugs❤❤❤