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Old Mar 04, 2017, 08:35 PM
Aardwolf Aardwolf is offline
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I don't want to feel this any more. I can't deal with the presure from all the expectations, from all the desires, from all of the people and personas Why cant it all go away for just one moment. One day is all i'm asking for to feel at peace with myself and to understand what it happening in myself and where it coems from.??

I'm sick of the voices fighting for the space in my head, feeling my heart torn to pieces over and over again, being told what i'll never become, always being knocked back, loosing the peropl i love and care for feeling this pain over and over it never ends. I have no purpose Simply existing is not , i can't go back to the lifeless prison which was in that drug state of mind with no thoughts, no ideas, no way to think in the way

Ring ring ring - no one answeres, 'I'm always here' to help" but when i try its a tone that never ends. It's the lights that are but they go out when you look for them

Its a green stop sign with a fluffy edge to make it seem safe, but it's not. It can't be, i was alwauys told it was never safe, so why do i think it is ? It shouldnt make sense like this at all

Laughing at this thing of a "human2 I have somehow found out here in the trees and the shadows of thought, it's a dark place.. it doesn't scare me any more. i've done it again, i've broken one of the last promise that i made to myself and all the other people, but what if theres no one here to check the choices that i make - does it then not mattwr anymore
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