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I'm looking to seek treatment for a chronic problem I've had increasingly throughout my adult life but have yet to manage or cure. I've made some attempts to seek counseling but I'm either misdiagnosed or had given up on treatment.
· The inner dialogue is constant and invasive. It's not a conversation with myself, it's almost always conflict, turmoil or anger lashing out at someone, coworkers or even loved ones. It starts the minute I get out of bed.
· Constant "ruminating thought" that surfaces in the form of expressed anger.
· Reliving or even imagining difficult, uncomfortable or painful experiences while at work or even driving in my car. It never ends.
· I’m somewhat short-fused and impatient – this isn’t helping things at all.
It's next to impossible to turn this off, and it impacts a good portion of my life. Even working out at the health club is a struggle at times and I'm quite easily distracted by this inner turmoil.
Quite often that inner dialogue can be seen surfacing when my lips are moving, or I'm having trouble concentrating or containing this anger. It must be obvious that something is going on inside it's usually me talking to someone or myself.
And, my attention span is next to nil. I'm always distracted and thinking of something else.
I'm not outwardly, openly angry, combative or violent towards others. And most would probably say I'm a pretty caring and funny person.
I recently started dating someone and she has asked what was going on inside and is urging me to seek some help. Is it physiological or psychological? Is an EEG or brain scan of any use?
I've suffered this throughout most of my adult life, increasingly, and now at the age of 60 it's time I end this once and for all. Is this anxiety? PTSD? Trauma? Curable without meds?
I don't see myself as being depressed, I just don't. I'm active and healthy, for the most part, but want to be more relaxed and at peace. And I have an aversion to taking meds unnecessarily. I want to get to the root of the problem, address it and end it, once and for all.
Thanks, everyone.
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