I don't want to feel this any more....

Ring ring ring - no one answeres, 'I'm always here' to help" but when i try its a tone that never ends. It's the lights that are but they go out when you look for them ...

it doesn't scare me any more. i've done it again, i've broken one of the last promise that i made to myself and all the other people, but what if theres no one here to check the choices that i make - does it then not mattwr anymore