Ugh. It's 2 am and I am awake. This is what I get for sleeping all day. Feeling rather ******.
Was wondering what people would do if i ever let myself truly freak the **** out. I mean like coworkers, acquaintances, people out there in the world who see me as sane, professional, independent, fairly together. Who see only what I want them to see, what I let them see. I am a really good ****ing actor playing the part of responsible functional member of society.

What if I took off my sanity cape and streaked the world with my naked mind? Crashed and burned and burst in flames. It won't happen, I won't let myself fall apart because I would never be able to Humpty Dumpty myself together agin. But I do wonder how people would react if they knew all the turmoil that races through my head sometimes.