Hi Hindley, Welcome to PC It's hard to read your post because the font is so small. I just want to let you know.

Sometimes depression doesn't 'look' like depression. Sometimes it manifests in purely physical ways, or in other ways, such as chronic anger.

It is not possible for anyone online to diagnose what's going on for you, and it's very difficult to diagnose yourself. Since your anger is clearly bothering you, and impacting your life, I strongly suggest that you speak with a mental health professional.