hey there, i'm really sorry you're experiencing this, and may you feel well soon.
i was diagnosed with depersonalization-derealization disorder (DPDR) and i can relate to what you are experiencing. that does sound like dpdr to me, and if you ever need to vent, i'm here and i hope you recover soon! best wishes
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18~portugal~she or it
MDD, anxiety, DPDR, ADHD, possibly BPD, possibly schizoaffective. have a lovely day and stay strong and safe please, you can do it!
currently on:
lamotrigine, pregabalin, aripiprazole, largactil, buspirone, methylphenidate (concerta), xanax, lorazepam (sos in case i'm nervous)

