I feel the same. But I have two kids. Im not allowed to call it quits but as much as I love them, I know im not living for me. I'm alive for them to make their lives good. But there's no point in life for me.

I like space though, I like to learn about plants, other stars, black holes. It makes me feel like even if there's no ' why ' to existance, knowing a bit about the ' how ' is a distraction in itself.