Well, I've known my current social worker since 2015. Until I get a social worker to finance the support, the only other method to obtain help would be to pay somebody personally, or pester people I know, and that's very extreme. He knows about my court orders.

Anyway, I even told him when we met that I would be happy just to work with men in order to avoid the same sort of situations from arising in the future, so I have no idea what the hold-up is here. However, these other agencies only really offer generic care, so they don't necessarily know how to deal with autism, but I suppose they're meant to at least understand the condition somewhat. It is very sad, but this profession does not exactly attract the nicest of people. I've also suspected from the beginning that my social worker has told other companies that I'm bad news, so they all ran a mile. Even if there is a lot of figuring out to do behind the scenes, I generally feel as if my support should have presented itself by now.

He keeps saying it's hard to gain flexible support because of the funding cuts, and because this is a female dominated business. I'm not disputing that perhaps this is maybe true to an extent, but I still think it's questionable what he spouts to me. Yet if I cannot arrange shifts for to do anything in order to network and meet people to be friends with, how am I supposed to tackle my anxiety and have a life worth living? There would be no point in even taken on the hours.

Sure, it's not their job to cure my anxiety, because nobody can work miracles, but it would certainly help me a great deal if I had people to attend a film set with me, and he seems to think I want my helpers exclusively for the purpose of me being an extra, when I do not. The way I see it, they get paid the exact same wage no matter what you do with the time they are allocated to their clients, but he keeps saying he cannot justify such a transaction. It boggles my mind, even now.

Some clients like bowling. Some like horse riding. Some do painting. So I like acting, and there is no reason why they could not join in as well. What really is so difficult here? You would think in some way, the social worker should be happy that I've found something positive that I want to do with my time, hence it could potentially stop me obsessing over the BS from the past, since there comes a time when we have to draw our lines.

Everything he comes out with is total rubbish, because while I cannot speak for every care providor out there, Autism Initiatives employs dozens of men and women. It's just that it makes no sense to return to the very company that (in my eyes, at least) screwed me over. However, I tried to get in touch with them after the sheriff suggested giving them another shot, and no-one cares. In fact, the last time I called them recently, the receptionist cut me off.

I've been with my parents now for coming up for 3 years. When I was bidding for my own flat at first, I was eventually told during a random conversation with a hub worker that I would wait 100 years at the rate they had me at. My friend has a house, and he thinks they are making this up. Well, I'm on homeless priority now. They make me bid on high-rise properties as well, in areas full of junkies. Nobody likes these venues, you see, so it's all been staged by the crummy council to make people accept any crap.