That picture AA posted was funny!

I usually imagine the voices of others' therapists rather than visual images.

My therapist is very handsome. He is in his early 70s but has the skin of a 40 year old. I have been wondering about that lately--does he get work done? Weekly facials? I'd like to see him with some hair on his face for a rugged look, like stubbles or gruff, which I've never seen on him. His skin looks so baby smooth. He also works out. He has nice thick hair which he used to style until shortly after he got married. Now it kind of goes all over the place.

I found a new picture of him online recently, and I thought-he looks handsome! Then I right clicked on it to Google search the image, and the results said "Best guess for this image: senior citizen". First I laughed-am I still idealizing? Then I felt bad. He doesn't seem like a 'senior citizen'.

Sometimes he seems really alluring to me, and I have thoughts that he does it on purpose. I think it may be transference, but whatever it is, it sometimes makes me mad at him. Usually when I see him, the first thought and feelings that arise is that he is so cute, and that he seems like a giant teddy bear. I feel love feelings inside my body as soon as I see him.

Can't really think of someone he resembles; maybe Patrick Dempsey with white hair.



(Yikes-how to you get this image to appear smaller?)