I only feel that way when I am depressed but I hear what you are saying everyone is different. I do enjoy your threads. You are an interesting read. I find it interesting the the anonymity of PC has me "confessing" about some of my wildest activities (though it probably only feels that way to me ) Post on--I think it may help you and your presence at this forum is positive. You're fun (yes, I know depression isn't always fun but you talk about other things also) because you are a thinker!