Ask for the opposite of what you are getting some one to that isn't meek confused etc. Allow them a safe passage out of the way of work so that you can be a consistent productive worker. I would try to understand why, process what is impairing functioning to the point you can't put it back to together. A great therapist can help with this it basically involves getting a kick in the pants affirming yourself knowing who to get out of the way of getting boundaries and being very gentle if in it for the long haul.