Everything I have read says one should share information about having suicidal ideation. Up until last December I kept it to myself. A brother wrote to me and said I should share this information so that I could receive help.

I followed this advice and since December 2916 in real life I self disclosed with crisis hotline people, my health care provider, two therapists I was interviewing, my oldest friend, a psychiatrist who did an assessment on me last year, a psychologist at my health care provider, and four family members.

Well, the outcome has been that the suicidal ideation somewhat decreased and then came back.

One brother disowned me today. He intimated I did not have mental problems but rather had numerous character flaws such as being selfish and self destructive. He said I should just go ahead and commit suicide!

I feel like my little experiment of self-disclosure has been a miserable failure. It seems to me it did more harm than good. I feel pretty traumatized right now by what my brother said.